Archive for July, 2011

My High School reunion is RIGHT around the corner (August 12-14 to be precise). There is stigma from High School– how your awkward manifested, relationships, the past, our hormonal education and growth journey, and how that experience shaped you to become who you are in this moment. Maybe you were type casted, had an awesome experience, you were someone who could not wait to get the hell out of dodge, or it inspired you to do different and become who you are.

In our teens, our hormones are raging, we are learning how to not only mentally grow, but also emotionally handle these hormonal impulses, the feelings, the social norms and miniature social pressures placed on us, especially all under the influence of our relationships. High School relationships: friends, family, peers, significant others, sexual encounters, and yes, the clubs and clicks of the social or the work environment. The journey of our inner power and the relationship of where this places us on the High School “food chain” is an interesting determinant of the series of events that unfold in the next 10 years and the journey thereafter: What will limit you and what will set you free.

I have a friend who graduated the same year from Rockbridge. We have been close since youth group. Adamantly, she is firm that she will not be going to her reunion, whereas I am genuinely not only enthusiastic to see others, but truly just happy to put on my adult attire and have an enjoyable night out in a hot dress with high heels (may I add all you can drink and eat). I probed her for reasons around why she does not want to go, and like many I presume, there is pain centered on what “was” in High School, or the relationship journeys that occurred “after”. When I say pain, it was the kind of pain like rumors, adolescent cruelty, being a cast out, letting yourself react to others reactions about you, not fitting in, and all that awkward bull shit that causes you to be trapped, or grow the hell up, developing behaviors we hold as our justification patterns as adults. “The people I am close with I see, why do I need to see the people at the reunion?” A valid point, but one I feel is true and false in a sense.

Exploring this phenomenon in movies from our culture, I share my top 3 movies I relate to for what WAS, IS, and can come to PASS:

#1: Romy and Michele’s High School Reunion (1997): Not a great movie, but it’s impossible not to enjoy the performances of Lisa Kudrow and Mira Sorvino, playing two remarkably unsuccessful friends who decide to outrageously lie to former classmates at their high-school reunion. “Uh, I invented Post-Its.”

I relate to the friendship that Romy and Michelle have and the desire to see everyone from high school, showing the journey they have come through. My favorite character was always Lisa, the representative from Vogue that gives Romy and Michelle their big break. Total laugh out loud movie.

#2: Zack and Miri Make a Porno (2008): Seth Rogan and Elizabeth Banks play long-time platonic friends who become depressed about their lives after attending a high-school reunion. The solution to their money woes? Make a XXX-rated movie. Director Kevin Smith performs his usual magic of mixing crudeness and sweetness.

Though I do not live with a friend from high school, and have not made any film debuts such as Zach and Miri, I laugh out loud to this movie, as the 10 year reunion is exactly where I am headed. They are at the end of the road, last resorts, and they have to come up with an idea to turn it around. The reunion scene alone when she discovers her crush was not what she thought all along is what always leaves my jaw on the ground.

#3: Peggy Sue Got Married (1986): Kathleen Turner gives a strong performance as a woman who passes out at her 25-year high-school reunion and actually wakes up back in high school. Francis Ford Coppola directed this amusing look at the unexpected, disturbing and rewarding paths our lives take.

What do you think about Nick Cage? Did you check out his hair?!? Wowsers! Though I am not in my 25 years post High School, I do know class mates who are getting divorced, and it is weird to look at this movie as an evolution, “what would you do different piece”. Just so we are clear: I would do it all the same again, every little bit.

People evolve or remain the same as the process of the journey unfolds. Some of our class mates are parents, have amazing careers, have had dreams realized and are on to the next biggest thing, or are still trying to figure it all out, making sense from what was/is/will be, have lost and learned, have passed away, have traveled far away, and are for the most part not the “same” as they were in High School attributed to looking, feeling, behaving, thinking, or being different.

My father went to Hickman, and has some of his closest relationships with people from his class reunions. Some of these friends are life long, high school to current, where as the majority are friends that when he was in school he did not know – Hickman was huge in the 70’s; it was even bigger when I graduated. I have great role models that are close with my father who have married High School sweethearts, married those from the reunions, divorced those from the reunions, continue to grow in relationships with those from the reunion through trips, dinners, and support one another for better or for worse, usually with a side of drama. These reunion friends of my fathers are like a second family to me, an extension of parents, aunts and uncles, cousins, sisters and brothers that in a crunch, I know have my back. I look forward to growing in this reunion journey of my own out of my own class now, no expectations, just excited to be going.

PS…if you graduated with me and you are reading…buy your tickets here.

If my post has struck a nerve with you – fears of High School past, reunion taboo, or why you would or would not go to your High School reunion, please share in the comment box below!


Returning from Chicago (the second time), I see a need to add the primary series in the schedule.

Yes, the 1.5-2 hour Primary Series practice can FEEL daunting…but the cikitsa is truly a great modality for prevention of pain + suffering and other blah blah blah (aka your story).

When I was in Ashtanga training, Manju mentioned that the Ashtanga method is really ALL the yoga one will ever need. EVER. You have to understand for an individual who likes to test limits, set my own, color inside (and outside) the lines, this was hard to imagine. But no Pigeon? No Standing Dancer? No Lizard?! There will be many “never mores”, this is, within the parameters of what is the Ashtanga method.

I have not decided full on to move FULL throttle and do ONLY Ashtanga personally or instructing, but a growing need is showing up in studio (and around me) for greater confidence, strength, courage, aptitude, and less chatter. I guess you could say “a little less talk and a whole lot more action”.

I suffer from wanting to tell the crazy boss in my mind to “Shut it”. Sometimes there is a lot of chittra/chatter and not enough stillness or the opposite of too much theory of what I would “like to do” “know I need to do” and not enough doing. The Ashtanga method gives freedom for the Spirit to BE as the Sanskrit speaks to the heart of your soul, the breathing carries you deeper into consciousness, and the movement wrings you out physically and emotionally.

I love it all, as the classical American that Manju so lovely described as we are like children who like to experience everything and when we are ready, make our mind up.

“We” as a collective have been working through the cikitsa for the past year. I feel that when you approach the remainder of the series (or the Primary), you look at how much awkward you can physically “BE” with. The great news is is that each pose is held for approximately 5 or so breaths, so we quickly experience, squeeze, and pause, then jump back into the flow – ahem…letting it go.

As a student of exercise and the study of self, I love yoga. I am passionate about sharing it with others and continue to search for new ways to reach existing or new students that brings the best and worst to surface. I enjoy just about everything and like to blend methods and modalities to cultivate what I am authentic with in every moment. The part that draws me to Ashtanga though is that it is the fundamentals, mathematics, and geometry that prepares you for more. NOTE: there are many ways to get the “job” done, at this time, I have decided that this is the BEST for me.

The next big question I have been sitting with for a while is WHEN. We are maintaining ~4-6+ individuals weekly in all of the power classes and dabbling in asanas and pranayama in the Primary and Secondary Series. The “when” will happen when it is right. When dedication meets opportunity!

Please share with me if this gets you going to be more active with less chatter, in studio or out of studio by leaving a comment below.